Posted: September 20, 2011
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I realised something this weekend, as I celebrated my best friend getting married, I realised that I am a “grown up”, an adult.
This may not come as much of a revelation to you but it kind of was to me… I’m 33, almost 34 for those of you that didn’t know. I work as a waitress in a restaurant full of early-twenty-somethings, I have a boyfriend who skateboards, my best mate in Oxford is 24, I’m never asleep before 1am, I rent a room in a house, I can’t drive, I have no children… I still felt/thought like someone in their mid-twenties.
Watching Claire & Steve tie the knot & glancing round at old friends there, some married, some not, some with children, some without I realised that at some point, without realising it, I had grown up. I had hit my thirties and actually, I’m doing OK.
I may not be the journalist that I dreamed of being for a glossy magazine, I’m not married, I don’t drive & therefore don’t own a VW beetle and I don’t have my own house but I’m debt free (how many thirty-somethings can say that?!), I’m with a man that I love and I have a great relationship with his daughter, I’m going to college part-time and I’m pursuing my dreams. When I was seventeen I imagined that thirty was when I’d have achieved everything & gotten ‘it’ all. Now that I’m in my early thirties I’m pushing the barrier back… maybe I’ll have my own house by fifty??!
Now that I’ve realised that I have grown up, I’ve decided to do something about it. I’ve decided to embrace it… I don’t want to look like a student any more, I’ve decided to glam it up a bit! I’m going to get my nails done. I’m returning to brunette (my natural hair colour. Ish.) I will ensure I always have breakfast in the cupboard. I will wear high heels upon occasion. Mostly I will stop waiting for things to happen. I will get up off my adult ladylike derriere & go make them happen myself!
Posted: June 21, 2011
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…….it’s a question I’ve asked myself a lot over the years & every so often I embark on a mission to grow it out. But I just caved… & cut it back in! Anybody else share in my perennial battle??!
Posted: May 22, 2010
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Blonde or Brunette?!
What do you think? Whenever summer rolls around I think about going blonde… but maybe I actually suit brunette better?
I have decided I need to implement a bit of a health kick. I have quite high stress levels due to my work & I never really relax properly. I occasionally get irrational with Mr J over the silliest things & last Sunday I sat on the floor at work bawling for about 10 minutes because I felt so frustrated & tired & overwhelmed. So my friend Malini & I have decided to give Yoga a go… I can’t wait, I’ve always wanted to do it but never have. The class we’ve found is only 5 minutes down the road from work & it means that at least once a week I’ll get out on time & hopefully will relax well & get a good nights sleep!
I also suffer from IBS so whenever I am particularly stressed out I end up with a stomach like a beach ball! Certain foods trigger this and so can alcohol.. I already know that if I drink beer I’ll have a poorly tum the next day! I’ve decided to try to eat better… I eat fairly well anyway but I eat pasta a lot which can make me worse, and oddly chicken can trigger it, so more salad, vegetables & smoothies… less bread, meat & pasta… all my favourite things.. **sigh**
I am beginning to feel as if I’m at a crossroads in my life… I kind’ve landed on a career path that I’v wandered along & it’s done me well but I think it’s time to go my own way, I’m just not entirely clear on what exactly that is yet. The place I work at has fantastic values…
Getting good quality food to people at affordable prices
Using seasonal produce
Sourcing locally where possible but not afraid to go global for quality
…but it’s too big for me. We seat 220 people in one sitting & on a Saturday we’ll turn that 5 times. That’s HUGE!! I’d like to scale down for definite… I fell in love with this place on Monday & it’s reminded me thats the sort of place I’d like to be. Smaller, more initimate, more about the food and the people than trying to run a huge place! I’m beginning to put some ideas together in my head but I really need to figure out how to put a business plan together, how to pitch it, how to get funding… small steps! The other part of the jigsaw puzzle is if Mr J & I have a baby… maybe I’ll change my mind all over again! I just very much feel as though this chapter of my life is starting to draw to a close….
I guess we’ll just wait & see 🙂